Work and stuff...

I suppose I should be counting my blessings but I feel nervous. I'm worried because at the restaurant I work at we are changing our concept and the restaurant will be closed for two weeks for a remodel. However, there has been talk that corporate wants to do layoffs. I just can't handle another lay off. I've been laid off three times in the last year. I guess I know how to pick them, huh? Regardless, I love my job and haven't been this happy in my career in a very long time. I really don't want to get laid off. I've learned so much and I feel fulfilled. I love the people I work with and am willing to learn more. I would remain loyal to the company and to the restaurant if I knew there was stability. I know my executive chef is going to try everything and talk to corporate about keeping as many people as possible. He said that before he left the kitchen tonight that "everything will be o.k." Isn't that what people always say when things are going to be bad?

On another note, I'm a bit worried too because I will be the Maid of Honor in my friend's wedding Saturday. I am really excited and honored that I was asked to be in the wedding. It will be the first wedding I have ever participated in. It's great because it's a lesbian wedding too and I really am feeling hopeful that the state government will continue to recognize gay, lesbian, and transgender rights. However, I don't know if the Californians will agree come November 4th. Anyway I am close to my friend's family and I will see my ex at the wedding...the bride is my ex's sister. I don't really talk to him anymore. I only wish him the best. However, I know he doesn't like me and I don't know if he will be civil during the day of the wedding. I am very nervous but once again hopeful that he will put his feelings aside. I want this day to be about the bride and groom. Regardless, I really would like to help as much as I can because I take my responsibilities as the Maid of Honor seriously. I just hope things will be o.k.